Time and time again I meet the disintegrated selves (men and women, equally)
So many instances of saying, "whatever you want to do..."
After years of self-sacrifice, they lack preferences. They're not entirely sure what they like and don't like. Was it vanilla or chocolate? They can't quite identify what they value or don't value. They have no real opinion on most anything. They can't really verbalize needs, wants, aspirations or goals.
They have no idea how to say..."no," because it was rarely said and when it was, resulted in backpedaling to alleviate the guilt.
They avoided conflict in the name of peace and violations were tolerated to maintain the illusion of love. A shiny exterior masked a rotting core.
Over the years the 'self' was slowly disintegrating....
And when it all comes crashing down around them, and they are left to face themselves, they are filled with uncontrollable rage.
They did everything they were supposed to do. They sacrificed everything to make it work, even their very own "self." How could this happen?
Now begins the long and arduous road of restoring...'you.'
The best way of finding 'you,' is to realize how you lost 'you,' else that pattern will be repeated in any and all future relationships and you will never really come to know 'you' at all.
'You' are the only one who will never leave you and who you will never lose, so best to engage that relationship to the fullest.
Otherwise, your life with 'you' can be a lonely and desolate experience....
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